Good question. I want a relationship that is real. Too vague? Ok, how about an illustration?
It's Saturday morning and the fall sun is slanting through the ventian blinds onto our bed. I stretch and open my eyes to see a sun-striped him propped up on one elbow looking at me. "God you're beautiful," he says, and means it, even as he pats the extra bits around my middle.
It's early, but we like to get up early on Saturdays to get the most out of the day. A nap in the middle of the day is sometimes required, but being in bed together in the middle of the day can have certain rewards besides sleep. Today I have a nice long mountain bike ride planned with the club I belong to. He absolutely HATES biking, so he's going off to sit in the stands of some sporting event with his buddies, or maybe he'll just be sitting in front of his computer today. But we'll probably catch a movie and grab some dinner tonight. And we have all day Sunday to be together if we want. We'll have a nice talk together then; it's amazing how we never seem to run out things to say to each other...or how comfortable a simple silence is with him. Maybe we can talk about that little house in the woods we saw for sale.
On my way out the door I bend over to plant a kiss on his forehead while he's putting on his socks. He grabs me around the waist and pulls me into his lap. "I want a real kiss," he tells me. And if I didn't have to be somewhere, I would push him back into bed and given him more than just a kiss.
Is that too much to ask? Is that really more than an average human male can offer? It's a give and take, I do realize that. And I am more than willing to give.
And when the world is on its knees with me its fine
And when I come to the rescue I get nothing but left behind
Everybody seems to be getting what they need,
Where's mine?
Cause your what I need so very
But I'm anything but ordinary.
--Train, Ordinary
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